I've not been on here for awhile due to being in love and feeling so high it was truly an amazing experience, something that I've not felt for a long time. I savoured every moment knowing that the high wouldn't last forever and that reality would kick in. So for nearly 2 weeks I felt more alive then I had done in years. It was so nice to have those loving feelings inside, knowing that someone loved me.
I was then listening to a programme and, according to the speaker, the feelings I had experienced came from inside me, the person who I had fallen in love with hadn't made those feelings I felt, it was me. He also said that I could recreate those feelings every day if I wanted to. That got me thinking.
Anyone suffering with depression knows how low you can get and how isolated you feel, when that light you held on to faded to a tiny spot and dimmed.
I have learnt that regardless of who is around you or what pills you are popping the only person that can really help you is yourself. Since discovering Louise Hay and a few other inspiring speakers, more recently Ajahn Brahm, I have started to look inside and started being kind and loving to myself and have stopped being so critical.
When the love I had experienced with falling in love ended, initially I was devasted and upset, but rather going down that familar self critical path that I had obviously done something wrong, instead I got my mirror out and spoke loving words to myself.
Even though I know I still have tears to shed over the broken relationship I know I will grow stronger and move on.
A Moodscope member.