Monday, 23 December 2013

Playing The Proud Card.

Here's the fifteenth in the series of excellent blogs by Lex covering the adjectives on the 20 Moodscope cards. Please don't forget we'd love you to add any ideas, tips, insights or advice you may have that you'd like to share with other Moodscope members that might be of help. Many thanks. Caroline.

In the fifteenth of my series on the twenty Moodscope cards, it's the turn of the "Proud" card – a red card – a positive card. Moodscope defines this as: "feeling sense of achievement".

Well that's just as well that there is a definition because "Proud" is a word that is not OK with me. I'm British and we know that, "Pride comes before a fall." We lost an Empire, arguably through pride and arrogance. The people I dislike most are proud and arrogant. But this is meant to be a good word. "A sense of achievement" – works for me much better.  The Brits have added a few good things to history of which we should be proud!

In the battle of day-to-day management of my fragile mindset, little victories count for much. This mirrors the fact that tiny setbacks can 'destroy' me. This is why I count my victories...and in the spirit of this card, I am proud of them. When the war seems to be being won by the floodtide of darkness, little victories really matter.

What kind of victories are important to me? Well, when I'm low, I'm a potty-mouth! I'm amazed at just how eloquent I can be when fed up. Bang my leg into the door...it's the door's fault! And I give it some 'feedback'. I know it's nonsense. I know it's stupid. I know the door is an inanimate object. And I know that banging into the door was my fault.  But when I'm low, I don't want to know this. I just want to vent my anger on anything that 'makes' the day worse.

Thus, every time I hold my tongue and say to myself, "that's just an inanimate object" – I'm proud of that tiny victory over my own stupidity! What are your small victories that help win the war against depression? Do tell!

Lex
A Moodscope User.